Life?
Life isn't the best right now, I guess I could say. I absolutely stopped talking to my friends, I started smoking and I now make poetry about how lonely I am and how I probably won't ever find a mate ever again.
I was on the bus going home from school and this couple of about maybe a year sat in the seat across from mine and they looked so happy and they kissed. They were both over-weight, brown and happy. You know what I don't understand? I don't understand how they could stand to be with each other. I don't see how that could be. I don't see how they could be interested in each other for so long. I just don't understand!
I find it very mind boggling. It's just so confusing and unheard of by me. And I don't know if I had felt that at one time. Or wait, I don't think I did. Maybe I didn't. I'm in pure doubt.
ANYWAYS my life is pretty boring. I spend my mornings learning and waiting for lunch, except for when I am math. I love math so much and I just wish it didn't have to end and hour and fifteen minutes later. I absolutely love learning it. It helps to get the mind off certain things that need to be forgotten for an hour or so, then these haunting memories come right back. After mornings I spend my lunch in the abyss of my dark mind... making spoken poetry or just plain lyrics while I swing, swing on the lonely swings with the dark clouds and the snow and the loneliness. At the end of the day... it is very awkward. I just don't ever know what's going to happen. ~le sigh~
Thy brother would like to go online. Goodness he anger me!
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