I hate too much

Okay so.. I've been waiting for my 'best friend' to reply to the message I sent to her about 4-5 days ago and she hasn't replied yet. I look on Facebook and she was online 18 hours ago (just writing this makes me feel like a huge stalker.. I saw it on the newsfeed) and she didn't reply. When I read that I was hurt, so hurt, so now I've got all this hatred for my friends. I don't have much friends but they all want to leave me to move somewhere else. I don't know.. I have one friend named Carrie, the one who I messaged and she wants to move 45 minutes away from me to go to a christian school, I have another friend named Keely and she wants to move 1 hour away from me to start a different school because she doesn't give a SHIT about any of the friends she made here. I just feel so hurt. That's pretty much all that I have, I feel like I have nothing. I have Matthew, but he doesn't know the real me. I wish he could but I'm afraid he won't like the real me. I feel quite sad.