Mattie

What could I say about him? He's perfect, loving and everything in between. He respects privacy, I told him not to come looking for my blog. Gosh, I love him. He's a perfect guy. He's super nice. He's just to awesome. He kept me alive when everybody gave up on me, he has always been there for me. Just makes me think, "You are one hatred filled son of bitch, you selfish coward.." because I lied to him, I lied to him so many times like I lied to Tait.. I just hate myself for that. Mattie doesn't deserve to be lied to.. but I just can't find the courage to tell him anything because I don't want to fuck up our friendship. I love him too much.