A post, so this is a blog? I'm going to write about my day today.

Well today I woke up at 3AM, I was feeling fine I watched a couple episodes of Jersey Shore on my laptop and then watched a couple of YouTube videos around 7. So I put on my shirt in mid-happening my mom walks in on me, so immediately I thought, "Oh shit she probably thinks I was doing something wrong or bad".. I can't help but think like that. So I started my day, I went to the kitchen, my mom made me scrambled eggs and toast (I wanted something healthier but no) and I ate it, I hated it. Lately I've been craving food from somewhere else.. not here where I currently am. While my mom was cooking she was complaining about her son (my oldest brother) talking about how he's trying to run away (he's already legally free to go, that idiot) and stuff. I thought to myself, "Like fuck I don't want somebody complain to me about their no life son" so I just told her I didn't care about what he did. He's an idiotic man-child who likes to drink, smoke, pop his money away. My mom asked me to do her hair, so I did and I thought, "Fuck, why can't this lady do it herself? If could do it, why can't she?" It's about 8AM now so I'm done her hair and she goes to do the rest of her hair (the top and whatnot) and I go to sit down with my laptop to go on the internet and my dad comes home and starts cooking for himself. So he's done cooking and he sticks down at the table about 1 minute in he says to me, "Your mom should have just left Nathan alone (her close relation.. and he was missing) cause now her family is going to bitch at her, jeez." something like that, I don't remember what exactly he said, so after he said that I think he was complaining about the news.. something like that. I absolutely hate it when my parents cannot just NOT complain for a day or so. So I got fed up and I did the dumbest thing in the world. (usually I wouldn't do such a thing) I made a status about them on Facebook and what I said was out there for the world to see, I said something about how they should just be happy and not complain. I ended the status with, "It's starting to PISS ME OFF." after I didn't feel any better. Everybody left for about 4 hours (they had work) and they came back at 12PM and it was fine, I guess. My mom said I was going for a physical because she thinks I'm ALWAYS complaining that I don't feel good, she said I say it everyday, that pissed me off a little bit because it isn't true. Not true at all! (I feel like I'm going on a bit of a rant here, but that's why I made a blog, or whatever these things are called) I've been talking to my friend Matthew (Mattie) and we're just talking about random things, all of a sudden he brings up, "OH THESE PILLS ARE KICKIN' IN!" so I'm shocked then I ask him, "You take pills?" so apparently he takes anti-depressants and then the conversation leaded to talking about how the pills at his house are locked up with 'big lock'. So then a few conversations later.. he talks about how he wants to be dominated during sex. I told him he was crazy (jokingly). So then he told me he has dominated somebody, I ask him, "You've had sex before?" He said, "Yes." I am completely shocked, my gut feels awful, I feel 'fucked up' not in the good way either. So I reply with, "WHAT THE FUCK?" because I didn't think he could get any ass at all (he's unfit, but he works out.. apparently he can't gain muscle mass) he said, "ONLY ONCE!" he's my future husband, so he says.. and I wanted him to be a virgin. I wanted to be better than him I guess I could say, I have feelings for him, but not the feelings he has for me. So the fact that he had sex ONCE pissed me off.. off the top... big blow.. explosions in my heart and mind. So I told him I feel fucked up and it's just silent from there. Back to my parents now. So my mom brings up the status I made about her and my dad. (I thought I deleted it before she could see it) And she's trying to say she didn't complain today when obviously she did (about her son) and my dad asks what about me? I told him he was complain about the search for my moms missing relative and he tries to say he doesn't complain about anything and some other gibberish. He doesn't make sense at all sometimes. So then my dad is telling me how I shouldn't say 'shit' on the internet or else my laptop will end up in a million pieces. I don't say anything to them after that, and while they were bitching at me I just kept my eyes on the screen and kept clicking and whatnot. So everybody leaves to work and it brings me to now. It took me about an hour to write this blog, I feel better my mood is lifted a little bit.