Okay so.. I've looked at a couple blogs and I have to say they were extremely beautiful. They seemed so creative and just full of life and words. Like a hot sunny day in the summer occasionally with a few puffs of clouds in the sky to go along with it. When I read them I just think oh this person who writes this wonderful stuff must have an adventurous life, I also think down about myself. When I read peoples blogs it makes me think I'm not creative enough, it makes me feel like I am stuck in a glass box that is shielded from the world. (sorry if this doesn't make sense I don't have my laptop with me, my sweet sweet laptop. I am using my iPod) I don't know what it is.. Do I have low self esteem or low confidence? It just baffles me. Or maybe I am just going through that awkward teenage stage, I used to be very fond of life and find it amazing, but that changed. I feel like this blog or post, whatever they call them is unorganized, I feel like just shutting off my iPod and going to bed, but I don't want to.. I want to finish this.. Or talk about my life. I've always wanted to write things down in a little journal but I would always throw away the paper because I didn't think it was creative enough to be treasured. I think that I want everything to be perfect.. I am never satisfied with what I do or make. I compare my work to other peoples work, I guess I could say. It's hard not to. So I came to Blogger so I wouldn't have to keep throwing my writings away. What kind of person am I? I just don't know.